Heard some verses in church on Sunday (plus some I found on my own) that have had me thinking. Landyn is never far from my mind and I'm always trying to figure out how to take that next step or just surviving where I'm am at the moment, so things like this stick in my head. Heard these verses, have them memorized (mostly =) , but it sure is good when things like this are brought to your attention again.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God promised to those who love him.
You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Well, perseverance and persevere appear 6 times....that warrants a trip to the dictionary just to be sure I do actually know what it means. I found...continued effort to do or achieve something, to persist, to carry on in spite of difficulty or opposition. I like how the verses say rejoice while IN our sufferings. Not because of the circumstances, but during them. A "glass is half full" kind of deal...the good is there, you just need to look. But more than this, the story does not go "....and your baby died, and you were sad forever. The End." Sure, she did die and I am certain the sadness will never completely leave, BUT there is MORE. After the testing, after the trial, after the suffering; you grow, you develop character, you gain hope, you become complete. The verse about Job is interesting. Job lost everything. God did not do that to him. God let it happen, but He did not do it. Same thing? No...not really. And after the trials were over God gave him so much more than he had. God had compassion and mercy. I look forward to this. I know it's not over, there is more. And IF I let it, it will be good. I so do not want Landyn's story to be that she died and her mother lost it forever. I want a happy ending for all of us....but I don't want to wait until I die for that...I want it to start now.